Remember how I wanted to see life more positively?

On this post, I said:

Meanwhile, on a personal note, I am trying to see life in a happier way (no more living life that Zetsubou Sensei way)…let’s hope this works.

It didn’t quite work, as a crapstorm of BS from the family ruined any positive outlook I had. Time to reset that clock and to try this again.

Some other blurbs after the jump.

dorisroberts.jpg—more site updates and a state of my life address

NEW YEAR, NEW RULES.

It is 2008 and it feels no different than 2007. Life is still on a gentle downward slope, I am growing more frustrated with each passing day; I am also becoming more cynical and aloof to everything. I have become colder and colder towards everyone and everything to the point my heart will be a black orb of hatred by 2010.

An entry to prove that I am still somewhat alive

Life has thrown its flaming playing cards at me, and I will try to explain how I’ve managed through it all.

Do a fist pump like Tiger Woods; finished another chapter

Yes another entry about my creative work. You mad?

Finished writing chapter 14 earlier. Twelve pages; not bad, I guess.

I also did a page count of everything I’ve written thus far: 147 pages. :-O

I didn’t think I wrote that much…

Review of Claymore episode 20 will come later today; calm yourselves down.

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YA

EDIT: If you noticed some changes in this blog’s appearance, you are right. I made some modifications to the widgets. Those who noticed the changes win NOTHING.

Yea, REAL MEN do things on weekends

New banner is a day late but who cares—I was busy.

I played basketball for the first time in three years on Saturday. I was a shitty basketball player back then…so you can use your imagination and your private parts to figure out just how much more terrible at basketball I am now. Later that night we went bowling. I did so-so, but not so great.

Now I am tired but will probably go online for a little while because I have no life.

Before people ask me:

Not really.

I also need to finish up Chapter 13 of Brian’s Creative Work.  I keep stalling on getting it done…

More rantings about my personal work

Writer’s block has set in yet again.  This is really pissing me off.

I’m in a bad mood, which oddly enough is the perfect mood to have to write, yet I cannot come up with ANYTHING.

FUCK these stupid chapters that take too fucking long to get to the point.

Yes, I am mad.

This always seems to happen to me: I come up with a lot of ideas for future chapters but I cannot get to them yet because I still have to write some shitty chapter where everything advances slowly (slower than shit out of someone constipated) and writing these slow chapters boils my blood even more.

Posted this because people are going to ask me this again…

The meaningful entry I promised…

Another week is about to come to a close, which means the wonderful senior year of college is one week/one step closer (no Linkin Park).

A lot of my friends are busy doing big things…getting their feet into the proverbial door at various jobs that benefit their future careers.  I, on the other hand, am doing grunt work for little money.

The future is an intimidating beast.  You know it is ahead of you, and it becomes more and more noticeable with each step, but yet you cannot discern it.  In the case of my future, I know it is ahead of me but I don’t even know what it entails.

I really want to be a writer, and a damn good one, too.  This novel I’ve been trying to complete this summer is a testament to that.  Will it be done by the end of 2007?  I think not, but I really need to keep hacking at it and keep writing away if I think I have any shot; more time spent not writing means more chances for me to become discouraged with my work and to no longer believe in myself.

I just hope that I can finally discover myself; half a year has already passed and I am still on the same figurative “square one” that I was at at the beginning of 2007…

For all zero people who asked, Claymore is the only anime I am blogging here.  This isn’t really an anime blog per sé but I choose to write my reviews on each episode of Claymore because it is by far the best anime I have ever seen, ever (hooray for redundancy).  If anything else in the future really grabs my attention, I may write about it here.

But for those who actually do come here for the reviews, please bear with me.  I haven’t really refined my talent to write reviews for shows, though I did take a class this past semester on writing critical pieces.  If anything, consider my reviews a way of “practice” for writing reviews for tv shows and stuff.  Who knows, I may end up doing this for a living if I get really lucky.

Anyway, Friday was supposed to be a trip to Philly  but that got pwned.  Instead it will feature billiards and bowling in Flushing!  SIH SIH SIH

Let’s hope that works out well.

Anyway, SEE YA (no Michael Kay)

Just another recap on things

Personal writing project:

I was writing chapter 12…I hope to get this finished soon.

Claymore:

Episode 13 is gonna be poppin…Read the manga up to chapter 34 (which is where episode 12 left off)

Free time?

NO. I started helping out somewhere. Free time is going to be limited.

Other things:

— Fate always plays a funny role

— I don’t get enough sleep

— I still don’t like the Mets

— WHAT

A more meaningful entry to come later this week.

Insert witty title here about writer’s block

Just when I thought I had overcome it, it seems to be manifesting itself again.

I think it is a sign that the arc I’m writing now in my story (which I guess I’ll call the “First Day Arc” since it all takes place during the first day of school—OMG I’M SO SMART) is getting tired and old; I’m going to have to throw in some OMGWTFplot twists.

I think I know what to do…but then that means I may have to rewrite all ten completed chapters AGAIN…not cool.  So I’m probably gonna do something different in chapter 11 perhaps…or start some OH SHIT SON level craziness in chapter 12…

Oh yeah, Subway Series tonight.  You already know who I am rooting for…

Toodles.

Today is Wednesday [/Captain Obvious]

Don’t you ever like it when you want to go out and get something to eat, and you get yourself all dressed up, and lo and behold, there is food waiting for you? A warm, soothing feeling I suppose.

And the novel is finally making progress. After finally finishing a shitty chapter 10—and naming it appropriately—I think I can finally move on again and finally get to the real good parts of the story…I hope.

Anyway, props go to Chien-Ming Wang and Hong-Chih Kuo for demonstrating the power of Taiwanese pitching in their respective games last night.

As long as the Yankees keep winning and the Mets keep LOSING…it will be smooth sailing…